Can Someone Please Explain This, Cause I'm Completely Clueless On It!

Why is it that people (myself included) so often avoid the "obvious" and probably right thing, and instead go knowingly after the harder to obtain alternative? Maybe it's because we fear that the "obvious" choice means it's the less desirable, that the harder to obtain choice has to be the better decision. Maybe we fear that by chosing the obious, we aren't challenging ourselves enough or we are just taking the easy way out? Or maybe we spend our life constantly wondering what will happen if we're with one person, what if someone better comes along? Here, allow me to demonstrate my point:

Boy likes girl. Girl likes boy. Girl is 100% aware of the fact that boy likes her, so in this situation, girl has a few popular options:

A. Girl can like boy back and can start dating him. (dating him, not neccesarily as in some serious, I wanna spend the rest of my life with you & have your babies way, but nice casual dating)

B. Girl can go out of her way to find someone better (at least at the moment) to date.

C. Girl can hang out with boy and lead him to believe that they could be together but secretly think that he isn't "Good enough" for her.

D. Girl will date boy.... but only till something better comes along.

I'm so confused. I don't get it. Maybe we all need to step back and appreciate the obvious. Realize that sometimes the obvious (the "safe" and secure decision) really is the thing that is right for us. It is the person, place or thing that we have been looking for all along & we haven't been able to find in all of the wrong places that we have been looking. Maybe a little "obvious" is just what we need in this life. xoxoxo

My Next Car...

I have decided that I want a new car. No, there is nothing "wrong" with my cute lil silver Honda Civic LX, I just decided that I must have this car. I am simply in L-O-V-E with the 2009 VW Eos... it's a hardtop convertible that is gorgeous:







That is all :) xoxoxo

It's The Dawning Of A Brand New Day.

Today was one of those days when you just wanna throw your hands in the air and say "Oh fuck it" and go home, drink heavily & crawl under the covers. I opted instead to go tan (which greatly relaxed me), come home, have a (low fat, thank you very much) Fudgesicle and take a 4 hour nap, some Veggie pizza from Domino's (my new fave by the way) and a diet coke. I do feel somewhat better, so long as I don't think about all of the BS that work is delivering to me.
I have gotten to the point where I almost don't want to go to work. It has nothing to do with having to get there at 5:00 am (ok, that factor doesn't help!), and it has absolutely nothing to do with the clients (as I really do enjoy what I do) however, I DO have issues with the corporate aspect of my job. I hate having to do 8 billion things and am never told that I am doing even kind of a good job. I hate that I am the only person who knows how to do Medi-Cal billing, the only person who knows how to do new admit paperwork, and the only one who can do the new financial shit on the computer. I get to do all the admits, all the billing and all the cash collections. I also get to listen to corporate, my manager (and now apparently my co workers too) bitch about people's paying schedules. I hate that I have worked there almost a year and I have added all kinds of things to my daily duties and haven't seen any difference in my paycheck. Cause I do absolutely nothing all day long... just sit at the front desk looking pretty... whatev.
I was going to be nice & stay there once my property sold, but I am currently re-thinking that option. Why the hell do I want to stay there and work my ass off for unappreciative bastards who make me want to drink like there ain't no tomorrow? The plain & simple fact is: I DON'T WANNA, and therefore I don't think I am going to. I can use my last 4 or so months to do something worthwhile, like some volunteer work that I wish I had been able to do, ie: Work at the Cancer Society store and or volunteer at a retirement center again, something that will make me feel as though my efforts are at least somewhat appreciated, where as lately, the only thing that makes me feel I am doing anything worth while is to hear from clients that they are happy that I am there (That is really the only part of leaving that will be difficult at this point).
I think that I need to finish the movie I'm watching, have myself a nice long hard workout, shower and go to bed. I just want to be happy, and this BS at work is just one more thing that is pointing me in a different direction in life... a direction FAR the hell away from where I am at the moment. xoxoxo

Seeing Myself Through New Eyes...

So it's been quite awhile since I've posted anything, and well I figured it was about time to get off my ass and post something! I have been without a computer, so please forgive me if I'm a little rusty or I start to ramble!
I have decided that it is time for changes in my life... I have (as like a week or so ago) started working out and eating healthier. I don't have a "goal weight", I'll know it when I get there. My main reason for the change is to be healthier, of course there are the obvious other benefits to weight loss... cuter clothes, old cute clothes fitting better, and well, just feeling better about your self. In my opinion, the weight loss is just like coloring my hair, or getting my nails done: It's something I do for ME because I like the results! So a week or so in and I have been very good... I am working out every other day (starting out slow and strong, so I don't over do it, get sore & Stop! Hehe!) I am already seeing results! My ass is going away, YAY!! I feel stronger, and have more energy. And can I tell you that there is nothing better than looking in the mirror and seeing that you have made progress!! I have been tanning too :) which I feel that I look so much better with some color on me (Plus with my hair dark, looks amazing! I am determined that I will get where I want to be, and soon! :) So, once I start seeing some more results, I'll post some update pics! (Thanks A.B. for helping to motivate me!) So I am gonna go for now (that workout is calling me hehe!!) but I will be blogging more frequently & of course, more updates soon!
xoxox Robyn